Captured Thought: AP

IT'S OVER!!!!! Oh my goodness... Every day i mantally go over what my homework is for the day, and i think to myself, "I haven't done any Bentley notes in a while...I bet a set is due soon." Then the events of Thursday morning pop back into my head. But mostly the undebatably positive events... like turning in the multiple choice section... or writing a note to the AP reader because I finished my essays before time was up. However, as relieved as I was to be finished with the test, I almost wanted it to NOT end... I've taken this course for two years, and I felt as though everything I had learned was being assessed by this 3-hour-ten-minute exam. Really, I'm being rated on how well I've memorized thousands of years of history in virtually every region of the world by one integer. That just doesn't seem fair. But to be a nice little postmodernist here, I'll admit i still DO care about the integer printed on a piece of paper they'll send me in a couple months, and i still want to be a 5 more than anything, and I'll still setlle for a 4, and not be depressed over a 3, and not be surprised by a 2 or a 1... I'm not even really sure how I placed. The essay writing was a blur. I think I did best on the DBQ, well on the C/C and not on the CCOT. I didn't bother remembering or looking up things from the multiple choice, so that's up in the air. But I remember feeling so attached to my essay writing booklet when they were collecting it. "THis is all my hard work. This was the single chance I had to prove to you what I know. It might not be good, but I'm proud of it. And you're just gonna take it away and give it a NUMBER. grrrrrrrr." I feel like I could have proved so much more... but still... IT IS OVER. THE AP WORLD HISTORY TEST IS OUT OF MY HANDS AND NOW SOME POOR READER'S PROBLEM!

P.S.
Mr. Allen, I took your advice and wore my 2006 Catholic High Schools Quiz Bowl Finalist T-shirt. I thought of all the hilarious things my fellow quizbowlers wrote on it, and I thought to myself, "I was smart enough to win a middle school quiz bowl competition 3 years ago. Of COURSE I'm smart enough to be taking this test now."